So this is today from how I thought last week was but today is not only did I take a
different bus system, and I'm the bus is still not here. But I have no auditorium I have to set
up for something else. I have to check the with the fifth grade team. And I just feel
completely out of my league today because there's just too many variables that I can't
control. So what does one do when one feels like that. Okay. Give him to it. I surrender
universe, I cannot control this, and I'm going to get there later than usual. I won't have
think time which always sets me off. And I have two or three things that I can't even figure
out till I get there so.
So what should I do, let it go. I mean there's no other way to do this because I have no
peaceful, I have no control over other or the bosses. And all I can do is get there, what I
can. But it's not easy for me because I like being in control. And I thought today would be
my anxiety free day long as it is laden with anxiety, but then as Tom told me the other
day, I probably want to feel that way. It makes me. I know I can explain it, because I don't
think I want to be that way. But sometimes I think that is just my raison d'etre.
So until later. This is me. On Tuesday, of last full week.