W24D124 Sometimes my ego is the thing that's holding me back the most. I worry about who thinks I'm good at my job. I worry about my personality. Good and kind. I worry about who I'm impressing or not impressing. If I'm getting praise if I'm not. And that's all pure ego. I wish, and I'm by reminding myself I wish, I wish that I could drop that so I could live in the moment more fully and freely, not thinking about what others think. But doing what I know I can do, and maybe doing accepting what I can. Every, there's always someone better than yourself. And so it's it's my responsible duty to start accepting my humaneness my frailties my weaknesses and saying, Maybe that's good enough. Maybe this is being me is enough and who I am, doesn't need any justification. I'm hoping that as I go into the weekend, I'll stop worrying about how the elective will go on Monday, if the kids will like me. If I will be successful. And just live into it because, honestly, living into something in the moment, allows you to have more time.
I was feeling a little bit nauseous this morning and I don't have anything really to to worry about
for school day. So it just occurred to me that the reason I'm feeling anxious and nauseous has to do with it being the last day of this wonderful bus driver that I got to know and got to love. She is from Trinidad, I know I just talked to her in the morning but there's something magical
about getting to know a stranger on a basis, such as that. I feel as if there are angels on earth and
people like that need, and maybe never see again are just as important in our lives as the people
we think we need to impress you think we need to prove things to. And it actually helps me see
who I really am rather than who I try to be in public, at my job so I give thanks to God for this
wonderful woman and I wish her prayer, every day just to say thank you.
