W24D121 I have 10 minutes until my bus arrives, and so I'm standing on the corner of Harrison and Wooster square and waiting. Feeling very anxious, which is my nature. And I'm wondering what the origins of anxiety are for me because certainly it wasn't always this way maybe as a kid I worried about some things but kids usually can forget and be in the moment, and I don't remember when I stopped being able to do that. I certainly can't these days with Winnie the Pooh play almost here and with several other commitments that seem overwhelming at this point. Some days I just wanted to chuck it all. Do something new and see if I can enjoy life a little more but when you become so invested in one. Career one track it makes it harder to take a different path because lots of things the money. The, the routine everything kind of becomes second nature to you and you just can't imagine doing anything else.
And that's where I'm at with my life right now so I feel very stuck in many ways. And I like what I do, but some days I just hit the stress of it is just overwhelming and I don't know how to cope.