W20D102 (Friday) . It is Friday, February 8th. Today I go to have my hair cut, colored, styled. It looks such a terrible mess. And I think that for me anyway when my look is disheveled or catawampus it makes me feel less secure and confident as is true with all human beings. So today though I dread sitting for two and a half hours, having it all done, it will in the long run, make me more energized because of how feeling confident about how one looks plays into your confidence level.
And today, being the end of the week gives me time to pause reflect and maybe even applaud myself somewhat. I tend to say things about myself that are unflattering. I'll give you one example. This week I opted out of the new teacher developer mentorship program, and I'm still feeling guilty about it. But if I were to put into a word why I did it, why I opted out, I would have to say time. I have precious little time even without the NTD commitment. With the NTD work it just makes me do everything less than my best.
I don't expect my life to be perfect, but I need to feel good about what I do and when I do too many things I do them all half assed. So it is time celebrate being able to push back against the pressure of doing everything. So today I do something good for myself.
I'm caught up with work every day. I have a little Winnie the Pooh directorship work to do over the weekend but not much. Not much costume work to do, either. Elective planning includes just making a few lists and maybe printing a document or two but not much. Talking to this app daily has given me time, because I can capture many reflections, helping me make use of my time more efficiently. One of the things I wanted to reflect upon is how much I have accomplished in the past week. Now with a week until winter break I'm feeling stronger, more resilient and again more confident. Even with the decisions I've made casting doubt upon myself, I still enter the weekend with a sense of purpose and self-care for my personal life. So giving myself some room to blossom and grow on weekends is critical. Of course I'll have to spend the weekend writing for my essay, but that actually is quite energizing and not a drag on my psyche. So this is Friday, February 8th.