Day 25 after my fellowship; hard to believe it has almost been a full month. I linger in the time that I was learning and growing and hope that I can do so in the following months in my work this year. With today comes the advent of what duties (lunch, morning, end of day) and will set the tenor of my work. My work will be part of being part of the school community and I hope to be more involved, even with my insecurities and introverted nature. It is easy for me to be outgoing on a superficial basis; this year I hope to be a better community member.
If I don't live up to that goal, I will give myself permission to do the best I can. Never one to be afraid of trying new things, maybe I will be able to go to a few social events. Fall fling is first on my list.
Not that I am anti-social, but not deeply connected on a personal level. I think that gets in my way, in terms of career. But in many ways I have conceded, that is just how I am but makes me seem less part of the fabric of the school. If I can get more involved, I will do my best to do so. Again, if not, I will not feel guilty or lose my confidence, due to lack of a social connection.
Life will go on one way or the other and tomorrow will set the tone for the year.