This was the second day of professional development and I feel slightly less anxious than at the beginning of the week; I powered through the meat of the meetings and now know what is expected for the year. We have no new initiatives, but several new approaches and ways of reflecting on the work we are going to undertake this year. Much of what I did at NDI ties in nicely with what they are asking us to do this year as teachers at the Curley. My hope is that I find the ways that genuinely engage students, while becoming more of what we learned was called a "warm enforcer". I use emotion and am more attuned to anxiety about their emotional health. Maybe that is because I always am happy when someone thinks about my wellness in those terms. :{ I am still feeling that I am not listened to, but I will keep my distance from insecurity and celebrate that I know what I know and won't worry so much what others say.
A total sentimentalist, I feel things before I find ways of being more effective. My personal relationships take a back seat at school to my own feelings and the distance, that I need to keep to hold my work in esteem with myself.
