Today I arose a little later. It's funny that as I get closer to the start date of school, I am sleeping more and working less. It is as if I am finally taking a vacation.
I hope that this year, is the year that I have enough confidence in my work that I don't overwork (weekends and holidays) because it feels as if I need to hold onto the little personal time that I have during the year. The work that I have will be intense (working on my essay) and the time that it takes to do quality work in the classroom and on stage. It is this between time, that makes it hard to really live in the moment. I worry, and get anxious about the work and who I am as a teacher, even as I feel more ready than I have been in years. I don't want to compare myself to others, but I want to make my work significant and rigorous. There are so many things that are in the air this year but even when I feel at my worst, I know that my expertise and strengths are full of promise and worthy of pride. I hope in this in between time, I stop to appreciate where I have come, and what I have yet to accomplish and learn, even though I am not new at the work.
