What gives me energy?
A question that I posed to myself today and I came up with the following three answers:
walking or biking
cooking
sketching or writing
But when I was writing this I was still feeling a loss of energy and motivation. Suddenly as I thought about these things that give me energy, I realized that often I focus on the wrong things and that makes me feel, well, lost. With the long academic year ahead, I know there will be times when I will feel less than wonderful or needed, or relevant or useful. There is a constant loss of self in this job I am in and it is difficult to reclaim self when in the throes of the work week. This summer did a lot for my self-esteem, but the life I lead doesn't reaffirm me during the work that I do. And there is always who seems younger, stronger, happier, more talented, less anxious, more assertive...and on and on. I have to remember that those things that I think I have to change are traits or characteristics it would be better if I just leaned into during my times of doubt. I pledge to find ways of affirming my work and life are just fine the way they are and that will set me free.
