Using the skills I have been working on for the whole of July, today I unveil the new me. Meaning, the me that is not afraid to take risks. Going to NDI is scary in many ways. So many people believe in me, but often that list doesn't include me. Why is that? How can I be there for students, if I am not there for myself? When will I know if I have arrived to the next phase of my learning?
Never being so adroit at questions, being more of an experiential learner, this is a surprise to me that I am questioning myself in such a direct manner. Now the idea will be to question productively, in other words, not questioning with an answer in mind, but as a way of actually exploring to find out. Because I am wanting to chart the next who weeks I am going to use my Lincoln Center training, framing the experience using our focusing questions:
1. What do you notice?
2. Why do you say that?
3. What does that remind you of or where do you intersect with that understanding?
On the right is a photo of the entrance to the National Dance Institute (NDI) which my husband Tom and I went to find on his Saturday with me. I tried out the subway there, walked in the neighborhood, checked out the grocery stores in the area. I am ready. I am focused. Does that mean I won't feel worry, panic, doubt in the next two weeks? That would be lovely, but that isn't my expectation. It means I will learn in the moment. Live with my insecurities. Grow from where I am.
Never stop feeling a sense of joy and wonder.
This is my journey-my true beginning...