So close now I am beginning to be very anxious. Anxiety is something I live with on a daily basis. I acknowledge my feelings even as I begin to transition to my work in New York. I have never been away from Tom for more than a week. That makes me anxious. I haven't danced full out for a long time. That makes me anxious. My life has been revolving around cooking my food and I won't have that capability for three weeks. That makes me anxious. But as Karen reminded me yesterday, emotions (and anxiety is an emotion) are like the weather and it comes and goes. What is most important is the capacity for dealing with the changes. Here is what I do know that...
Tom and Lydia will be okay.
I will adapt and find the strength.
I will be able to learn and grow.
My experience will boost my self-confidence
It also will be an exercise in gratitude for what I have and who I am and that yearning for being more might morph into, contentment.